This is how I feel today...

Colorgenics Number: 14362057

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You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

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LOL! haih......... haaaaaaaaaaaaa *long sigh*... today is a sad day.. where i realize i don even noe wat is he thinking.. i dun understand him.. i duno how he can think like tat and say such things, it doesnt make sense to my logical mind and i dun think i can live with a person like that.. it's against my values which i hold dear to my heart. My chest feels so pain n as though something is pressing on it.. my eyes is filled with tears at the slightest thought of it.. but i try to hide.. cos i dun wan anyone to noe and ask me about it.. i dun wanna repeat again.. i'm tired.. i had enough.. i have a lot of problems on hand... i need time to think and finisih them up.. exam is coming up.. not much money.. close dear ppl are falling sick.. i have responsibilities.. i've been relaxing too much? thinking too much? my mind is a mess.. my nose too (LOL!)

I want to go to the prom tomorrow and have fun.. and can I? what if i'm left alone... everyone has their own things to do.. a good friend of mine has offered to come if I really need a fren.. tat is so sweet and nice of him. Thank God for a friend like that! =D

I better sleep now.. tmr 8am class! haha *suddenly updating my blog after so long*

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